guess am suffering from a writer's block...i wanted to write so much abt my trip,train journey,insights...but i just don't seem to get that mood to write.
is it bcos there r too many things to write about and don't know where to start?
or bcos of a 10 day break,mind is not able to get focused on one thing and complete it?
not sure...so trying to break that block by typing this post.:)
Mar 31, 2005
Mar 14, 2005
Vacation
yep..i've got a week off..the whole next week..:)
am starting home on friday afternoon..and starting back on next sunday afternoon..
suddenly now,if i think back as when was the last time i went home...it was in Last March end and then a very short trip for 2 days in September...
But parents and all came down here twice to visit me..thats the reason why i never felt as if i missed my parents or anybody...
also this just reminds me of CAT Preparation...i cldn't go home for Diwali,bcos next week was CAT.also i rejected one onsite opportunity.
now suddenly looks like all the preparation has gone waste,no ultimate result.
am not sure whether i can put in,yet another year's of effort...still,just don't seem to have the confidence level back.
is it bad to write abt your feelings?..bcos when i started the post,the feeling was very joyous..now i seem to have digged up all the wrong reasons.:)
one thing is sure,am happy abt going for a vacation...it's going to be a relaxed week.no pressure,no deadlines..only eating,sleeping,chatting,fighting with my brother and catching up with frens..how cool it sounds..:):)
one more thing,today i was telling to team-mates abt my vacation...i told to 4 ppl and 3 ppl asked me,"Oh,how are we going to fix the issues without your help?"...
The ego part of my mind was extremely happy to hear this...but immediately the real experienced part of mind came into picture.
Yes one thing which i have realised in the past years of experience is,"No one is indispensable in this work...there will always be a replacement for you".
It sounds a bit disappointing,but that's the fact..A company might face initial glitches in a person's absence..but that will never become a blocking factor.
Still am happy that my team-mates do consider me as a contact point for any issues to be fixed.Getting recognition/acceptance among peers and juniors is one of the most heartwarming feeling..
am starting home on friday afternoon..and starting back on next sunday afternoon..
suddenly now,if i think back as when was the last time i went home...it was in Last March end and then a very short trip for 2 days in September...
But parents and all came down here twice to visit me..thats the reason why i never felt as if i missed my parents or anybody...
also this just reminds me of CAT Preparation...i cldn't go home for Diwali,bcos next week was CAT.also i rejected one onsite opportunity.
now suddenly looks like all the preparation has gone waste,no ultimate result.
am not sure whether i can put in,yet another year's of effort...still,just don't seem to have the confidence level back.
is it bad to write abt your feelings?..bcos when i started the post,the feeling was very joyous..now i seem to have digged up all the wrong reasons.:)
one thing is sure,am happy abt going for a vacation...it's going to be a relaxed week.no pressure,no deadlines..only eating,sleeping,chatting,fighting with my brother and catching up with frens..how cool it sounds..:):)
one more thing,today i was telling to team-mates abt my vacation...i told to 4 ppl and 3 ppl asked me,"Oh,how are we going to fix the issues without your help?"...
The ego part of my mind was extremely happy to hear this...but immediately the real experienced part of mind came into picture.
Yes one thing which i have realised in the past years of experience is,"No one is indispensable in this work...there will always be a replacement for you".
It sounds a bit disappointing,but that's the fact..A company might face initial glitches in a person's absence..but that will never become a blocking factor.
Still am happy that my team-mates do consider me as a contact point for any issues to be fixed.Getting recognition/acceptance among peers and juniors is one of the most heartwarming feeling..
Mar 12, 2005
Onsite Trip
looks like i need to travel on the first week of April to US...this trip would be for 3-4 months.
got my Visa in Jan and it was frustrating to wait like this...bcos every Tom,Dick and Harry keep asking me in office,"When is your travel?".And i never had a proper answer.
Now that it's finalized,i am worrying as i would miss watching F1 every fortnight..
Also,one of my fren is coming to hyd on April 9th.i won't be able to meet him,bcos in the worst case,i have to start on 8th...:(:(
why does this happen everytime?
Before i get a visa,i am not in a mood to travel..once i get a visa,the initial thoughts are all happy ones...and the wait fuels the happiness..but once the travel gest confirmed,am not that interested in travelling...
then am sure,once i reach US,i would be happy for a few weeks..then after 2 months or so,all thinking would be about returning to India...so after another 2 months,once i return to india,initial few days would be happy...then again,mind starts thinking about US.after few more days,life is into a normal cycle.
the strange thing is,if i tell this to anybody who hasn't gone for a trip to Onsite,they will not be able to appreciate it...
last year,when i told this to my fren in oracle,he said,"This is all bcos of too much of thinking.Be happy that u r getting a chance to go.think of us,we never get any".
Then he got a chance to go for a month.When he came back,he resonated the same feelings as mine.
But from that time onwards,i have stopped cribbing or praising about US Trips to anybody...
all our feelings apart,parents are happy when their kids go to US...
got my Visa in Jan and it was frustrating to wait like this...bcos every Tom,Dick and Harry keep asking me in office,"When is your travel?".And i never had a proper answer.
Now that it's finalized,i am worrying as i would miss watching F1 every fortnight..
Also,one of my fren is coming to hyd on April 9th.i won't be able to meet him,bcos in the worst case,i have to start on 8th...:(:(
why does this happen everytime?
Before i get a visa,i am not in a mood to travel..once i get a visa,the initial thoughts are all happy ones...and the wait fuels the happiness..but once the travel gest confirmed,am not that interested in travelling...
then am sure,once i reach US,i would be happy for a few weeks..then after 2 months or so,all thinking would be about returning to India...so after another 2 months,once i return to india,initial few days would be happy...then again,mind starts thinking about US.after few more days,life is into a normal cycle.
the strange thing is,if i tell this to anybody who hasn't gone for a trip to Onsite,they will not be able to appreciate it...
last year,when i told this to my fren in oracle,he said,"This is all bcos of too much of thinking.Be happy that u r getting a chance to go.think of us,we never get any".
Then he got a chance to go for a month.When he came back,he resonated the same feelings as mine.
But from that time onwards,i have stopped cribbing or praising about US Trips to anybody...
all our feelings apart,parents are happy when their kids go to US...
Mar 9, 2005
33% reservation
I remember last week during lunch time,myself and my colleagues were discussing all sort of odd things.Somehow it came to women in work..and then he was asking,"Why do women need 33% reservation,when they want to be treated equally?"
Quite an interesting,controversial,debatable question:)
And in general,there are no right or wrong answers for these type of questions.It all depends on the individual and really no point in starting an argument/discussion out of it...
I replied,"I have no idea"...bcos,i was in no mood even for an ordinary discussion.(was already frustrated with heavy load of work on that day)
Yesterday,i was thinking abt it.There was a program in Jaya TV where Tamarai,a tamil poet was mentioning as how important it is for women to be financially independent and how important is the education.
And i just thought of myself..whatever maybe the disappointments i get,in one way or the other i am lucky to have a wonderful parents...
we might be hardworking and intelligent to reach great height...but first of all,we need to get an opportunity to go for it...and that can happen only with understanding parents.
i had a friend whose father was so strict...she is a very good classical singer...but her father doesn't like her singing on stage.so she never sang in our college.it was sad,bcos she had such a wonderful talent,but she was not allowed to present it.i never understood what's wrong in singing in college? ok,if it's dancing atleast,maybe guys might tease..but singing,i have never heard atleast guys teasing...
and there was one girl in my school,whose parents didn't want her to take up Science group,bcos it seems,if she takes up Science group and does engineering,they need spend lot of money and also it would be very difficult to find a proper groom.so she took Arts group and i think she did Bcom...
why even few of my relatives objected me,when i opted for REC,Trichy...bcos they said PSGTech,CBE is also equally good and wanted me to join there...but thanks to my father,when i said i wanted to study in a better college and i want to stay in hostel to be on my own for a few years,he agreed.
Basically i should thank my parents for having trust/belief on me...bcos i think most of the issues crop up,when there is no trust/belief.
And i think this 33% reservation is like an added bonus...atleast with this,women might get an opportunity easily...
But we are really dealing with the mindset of the people...so even this reservation might not fetch the results,bcos changing a person's mindset is the most difficult thing.
Quite an interesting,controversial,debatable question:)
And in general,there are no right or wrong answers for these type of questions.It all depends on the individual and really no point in starting an argument/discussion out of it...
I replied,"I have no idea"...bcos,i was in no mood even for an ordinary discussion.(was already frustrated with heavy load of work on that day)
Yesterday,i was thinking abt it.There was a program in Jaya TV where Tamarai,a tamil poet was mentioning as how important it is for women to be financially independent and how important is the education.
And i just thought of myself..whatever maybe the disappointments i get,in one way or the other i am lucky to have a wonderful parents...
we might be hardworking and intelligent to reach great height...but first of all,we need to get an opportunity to go for it...and that can happen only with understanding parents.
i had a friend whose father was so strict...she is a very good classical singer...but her father doesn't like her singing on stage.so she never sang in our college.it was sad,bcos she had such a wonderful talent,but she was not allowed to present it.i never understood what's wrong in singing in college? ok,if it's dancing atleast,maybe guys might tease..but singing,i have never heard atleast guys teasing...
and there was one girl in my school,whose parents didn't want her to take up Science group,bcos it seems,if she takes up Science group and does engineering,they need spend lot of money and also it would be very difficult to find a proper groom.so she took Arts group and i think she did Bcom...
why even few of my relatives objected me,when i opted for REC,Trichy...bcos they said PSGTech,CBE is also equally good and wanted me to join there...but thanks to my father,when i said i wanted to study in a better college and i want to stay in hostel to be on my own for a few years,he agreed.
Basically i should thank my parents for having trust/belief on me...bcos i think most of the issues crop up,when there is no trust/belief.
And i think this 33% reservation is like an added bonus...atleast with this,women might get an opportunity easily...
But we are really dealing with the mindset of the people...so even this reservation might not fetch the results,bcos changing a person's mindset is the most difficult thing.
Mar 7, 2005
Australian Grandprix
the first race of 2005 has turned out to be a disappointing one.Weather has really played the foul part...and then thanks to Nick Heidfield,schumi got out of the race..
the only consoling part of the race is Ruben Barrichello's finish in 2nd place.this indicates that Ferrari's remodelled 2004 Car is still equivalent to other team's new Cars.
and i think it was a good strategy for schumi to quit after the collision..because anyway he can't do a point finish..atleast by retiring,the team can work on the engine and put in some modifications for Malaysian GP...
Hope things turn out well in Malaysian GP....
the only consoling part of the race is Ruben Barrichello's finish in 2nd place.this indicates that Ferrari's remodelled 2004 Car is still equivalent to other team's new Cars.
and i think it was a good strategy for schumi to quit after the collision..because anyway he can't do a point finish..atleast by retiring,the team can work on the engine and put in some modifications for Malaysian GP...
Hope things turn out well in Malaysian GP....
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