ok...i really don't know how to start, but today is just one of those days in my life which i can never really forget.
had a personal appointment in the morning...came back to office at 12.30pm. my teammate who sits beside me was packing things and HR was standing next to her...also the IT Dept guy was standing. My teammates eyes were red and she didn't talk to me. I asked HR what's going on...she didn't say anything...
I told to HR,"I am her Team lead. Can you please tell what's going on?". HR said,"Today is her last day".
I was shocked. My teammate couldn't talk and was looking very uncomfortable to stand inside office itself. I said,"i'll call you in your mobile".
She left. I turned back to fellow team member and asked,"what is going on?".He said,"i don't know.but few are asked to leave".
In the next few hours, i came to know all my good buddies are gone. There is just not many left...
I have read about pink slips after dotcom bust...
But this is the first time, i saw something with my own eyes.
Honestly, i thought i am in today's list,somehow, i had a feeling that i'll be in the list...
I mentally started calculating how much i have in my current bank balance and how many months i can survive peacefully before getting next job... And the next thing i did was to cleanup my desk and then take backup of salary slips because if i am going to start job search, i'll be asked for that .
Well, by the end of the day, i am still employed!!
I feel sad and bad for my friends and colleagues who left today...Infact,my hands were cold and face flushed till evening...
I still see the confused, fearful faces of my friends who left today...when my team member asked,"why me?", i didn't know the answer...i kind of gave a very convincing answer which in no way mentioned anything about her performance...because many fear that they are let go because of poor performance and at heart they don't want that to be the reason because that will be a totally demoralizing factor...
When one colleague cried telling that she moved to the city few months back and have put her kid in a new school this year, i was actually shocked and just for a moment thought that if i blink, tears might fall...I did end up telling her that she still has 1 and half months to search and get a job and promised her that i'll help in forwarding her resume to my friends in other companies...
I did have a very bad feeling over the 4-5 months about the whole economy and job market, but somehow i never expected this...
Among all this, the only moment when i couldn't blink off tears was when i saw an SMS from one of my best buddies which said,"Everything ok?"
This simple line was just too overwhelming......